Facing Myself

An actualization that hit me like a train
Just about time to end this internal pain
After months and months of not caring about fate
I realized I actually really needed to lose weight

I used to be thin I used to be fit
And If I don't shake then this will be it
The Doc says I've only a matter or time
If I don't shake it the risks will climb

I finally began to feel a little fear
So decided it's time to get off my rear
I picked up a disc and started Insanity
Then I sprained my leg, a test of my sanity

When I finally recovered once again I began
The weight is where my gym time would span
Already i'm seeing the effects of the work
5 pounds, already they're gone, it's berserk!

The Long Desired End to 2012

I've been pushed aside for the very last time
A friend of convenience is a title not to be mine
Only called upon when it's fitting for them
This friendship came apart starting at the hem
Let me paint the conflict quite red and quite clear
To them my friendship was nothing but a smear
I confronted the fiends to solve the crisis
Instead I got insults and accusations unrighteous
Not one, not two, But nearly all
Their betrayal stabbed, and like Caesar I fall
In addition my family is pushing me off the edge, with constant irritation
And no Rutgers acceptance yet has led to extreme lamentation
And finally upon realization my catastrophe of a life
I realized the key to ending me strife
Simply stop caring, and allow for recreation
And finally a simple path : meditation

My Struggle to Write What you are Reading

Procrastination has been the fall of many a great man
Myself soon to be one of them
So much to do, the work hits me like a van
To poor grades i'll am condemned

And hope that Pallas Athena grants her wisdom
Or else I'm truly finished
And better should my path become
A scholar's life diminished

I try, and try, but my foolish laziness unparalleled to that of monarchs
Till' the clock and chimed and it's near too late
And my body refused to move no matter what demarche
And I feared I'd receive old Louie's fate.

Finally, I stood up and refused to accept it
And Von Bismarck's soul
Granted ambition, my incentive was lit
And i'm ready for assignments whole

"Rushing Adrenaline and Dopamine"

The Dopamine, Adrenaline, it pumps through my veins
The victory with the senior class shall remain
With a smile, a cheer, we watch the events
And with every challenge overcome we repent
For last years loss, whether fair or not
This years trophy is the jewel we sought
Just like Job, whose patience, and will remained
Those key qualities are what led to our reign
The spirit, the face paint, adrenaline and chants
All the other grades were burnt just like ants
The grade coming together for what seems like once
Our desire to participate appears in abundance
We were haunted by devastation of the year before
But now we've been given the to even the score
And that day we walked with grins on our faces
For we had just put all classes in their places

"The Acceptance into a Venerable Hall of Knowledge"

Of all the nerve wracking events
Sending college applications must be the worst
I've extremely worried and bent
I've been trying exceedingly to be the first

Teachers on my back about every detail
My essay gone through ridiculous evolution
This pressure as strong as a storm of hail
I await the days of my comfort's restitution

My hope so strong it feels tangible
To receive acceptance to the college of my dreams
My desire to accomplish is to others impalpable
Whether or not I am successful is an enigma it seems

And through and through, it's honestly what I feel
That Rutgers is the place to be
But all these doubts are something with which I have to deal
Whether I get accepted is what i'll have to wait and see